52, floral designer/product developer
married, two kids (age 7, 14)
What does “having it all” mean to you? "Having it all" used to be about being recognized in my career and looking like I was really on-pointe. "Having it all" now is much more holistic than it used to be. It’s about finding new things that keep me curious and engaged.
Previously, I never had space for being creative. Now I have found one thing I love—floral design—but I think there’s lots more out there. I’ve stifled my creativity as I’ve grown my career and being in the midst of motherhood. I just want to see what I can do. The difference is that now I am not afraid to find those things and worry about too much change. Change is what’s going to keep me alive and well. If it’s something that’s not working well, I can change it. We all have that power to change.
What are you current goals? They’ve changed a ton. My whole journey has been about exploring—trying to figure out what I want as I get older. What do I want my relationship with my husband to be? How are we going to have the next half of our lives be fun, committed and together? Now that our kids are getting older, how do we make our time together worthwhile for our personal satisfaction and for our relationship too? I lost my parents recently, and seeing the circle of life has created an new awareness for me.
Portrait by Vivian Johnson